a life alive?

Walking around through life today
looking for a life of meaning,
I’m watching people and wonder:
Does it seem we’re all play-acting?

I’m led to believe it’s all a game
with dressed up images and plastic smiles.
A mask of confidence to brave the world,
fulfillment found in the emptiness.

Returning home to a small cocoon,
the private inner-world to create sanity.
Obsessed with pets and mindless TV,
living vicariously, dreams of adventure.

Hiding away behind a confident mask
they’re pretending to be fully alive,
but I see the fear behind their eyes
when I give them my smile of freedom.

What are they hiding? What’s the fear?
That keeps them living smaller lives?
Keeping them down and all alone?
Our communities crack from disconnect.

In the city so big, pockets collapse
as people move real life offline,
with virtual communities and relationship,
sitting alone in front of a computer.

There is nobody warm and caring,
to laugh and cry in complete humility.
The cynical existence replaced authenticity,
hidden and protected behind the screen.

Who am I now, what is missing?
The void inside screaming all the while;
to feel another presence connected deeply;
to know I am here and really alive.

this world

Everyday, getting smaller and smaller
Hearing the screams of pain and agony
The suffering continues
As mankind evolves
But into what?
Atrocities and virtue collide
In a constant battle
As two bighorn sheep
Dueling it out on mountaintop
A thundering crash on impact
Sending a shiver down the spine of society
Trying to make a better place
Will good overcome evil
Or will a blind eye be turned?
Ignoring the crimes committed
Against helpless people
Nuclear fallout, civil wars and terrorism
Destroying a fragile web
The spider must rebuild again and again

headrush

A quiet giggle
A shy smile
Holding hands
Twinkling eyes
Breathing
Sniff it in
A glorious fragrance
You smell
You feel
Tingling
Everywhere
Veins screaming
Blood pumping
Pulsating
Throbbing
You grab hold
Hugging tightly
With a kiss
Made lightly
Breathe in again
Inhaling more
The room spins
As you gasp
For air
Nose twitching
Wanting more
So you hold on
Tightly
On the edge
Balancing
Grabbing on
In an embrace
You kiss
Deep, longingly
In fantasy
Too good to be true
Is it real
Or hallucination
Eyes closing
Lazily
Tongue reaching
Caressing
Searching for more
Inhale
The scent
Tickling
Taunting
Teasing
Creates desire
Insatiable
For more
Holding on
Falling
To the bed
Inseparable
Surrendering
Plummeting
Over the edge
The drug, love

living paradise

Eking out a living in this paradise
Gimme Johnny Walker, neat, no ice
A few more of those I’ll be alright
Getting me through a long slow night

Twisted pains to death line my face
Another chance tomorrow, my saving grace
I’m here to fight, never say die
Always chasing truth, never a lie

Smile for me Baby I’m here for you
Whatever it takes you know I’ll do
You know my dirty secret I can’t hide
That’s why I get with you, deep down inside

Wake up everyday glad to be alive
Another day of earning a nine-to-five
Soul is not for sale, just a man for hire
The dream is alive, you can’t kill the fire

Eking out a living in this paradise
Gimme Johnny Walker, neat, no ice
A few more of those I’ll be alright
Getting me through a long slow night

soul healer

Kiss me, kiss me true
kiss me deep when I’m blue
heal all my warm wet tears
salted sweet over the years
tasted lightly on your tongue
the dream to be forever young
a salty taste of bitter-sweet
a glorious chance we did meet
arm in arm and heart to heart
you’re my heaven, my sweetheart
your touch so soft as to care
the pain gone, no more nightmare
as I feel your loving balm
peace restored my soul to calm
Kiss me, kiss me true
kiss me deep when I’m blue

is this a kiss?

A faint memory stains my vision
but the body remembers exquisitely
for more addiction to develop erotic
demands the attention in solitude
screaming passion electric undercurrent
stimulating pheromone cologne
and a fiery belly shivering down
to groan the delicious whispers
of fantasy found in starburst red
wet slick juicy full lips ripe with desire
tasted lightly slightly tracing tongue
upon the whimpers plead for more
to further explore with torturous tease
touching lightly your lips aflower
soft fuzzy touches, flicks, and kisses
blinded oblivious with divinity’s pleasure
blends all creation and all exists as one
time stood still
blood pulse
thumping rushing
dizzy
breathe
you shiver and ache
legs quake, eyes wonder shocked
could there be more

stupid thoughts

Try to sleep
lying in bed,
thoughts run through
my stupid head.

Keeps me awake
until I write it down,
so I am thinking
with a frown.

And then I start
under the light,
sometimes so prolific
it gives me a fright.

Why do I do it
I cannot comprehend,
but I feel so good
in the end.